5.18 ~

Nauseous again! My body hates me :D I stabbed myself with a needle trying to bind the picture book, but it was worth it (I got approval and praise... T^T). ALSO, the stupid Bluebook app from CollegeBoard would crash and NOBODY could take the AP test. Oh well, I'll still be able to take it, so it's chill. I got to watch iron turn into molten iron and resolidify, so that was cool. I think I'm officially friends with TWO of my classmates now, so that's exciting. One of them yapped to me about stuff and drama, so they're comfortable with me I think, so that's nice. They're also really smart and pretty and good at music, so yay! More pretty friends lol. And then I've had one on one yap time with another classmate recently because of circumstances (nothing bad, other friends were just absent lol) so I like to think we've gotten closer. Anyways, it's been a decent week, just been sick a lot. I hope you had a wonderful week!

5.15 ~

Had a concert the other night, it went okay. I was really nauseous tho, it sucked. Actually had time to work out today. That was nice. School hasn't been too bad, I'm not really doing anything in my classes rn bc it's the senior's last week, so it's a lot of chill time, especially after AP exams. I have one more exam tomorrow and then I'm all done! I stabbed myself with a needle today while binding a book :/ it was worth tho, I'm really proud of it and my teacher is going to read it to his kid haha. My second picture book I've made in high school actually. I like this one a lot better, I think it looks nicer. Anyways, hope you had a fantastic day!

5.11 ~

Went to the fair yesterday, it was alright. Mainly went for the food haha, it was worth it. Happy Mother's Day! We went to a brunch with family and out to eat to celebrate. I just got my mom some seafoam (dark chocolate, her favorite obviously). It was my partner's bday yesterday! Happy belated birthday if you're reading this! I've been really busy and tired, basically just crashing as soon as I get home. But that's okay, it's been fun. The senior's last week... I'm not ready T^T I'll miss them so much. Wish everyone a wonderful day :D

5.7~

I took cold medicine this morning and it's so trippy. Antihestimenes will do that to you ig! My psych teacher wanted us to do a practice exam T^T I'm so tired. I covered for one of my coworkers last night bc she had a concussion. Getting froyo with a friend today! Downtown will be busy tho T^T I also have to work till close again tonight... it's fine though, bc my mom is calling me out of school tomorrow! Yay! I get to sleep in. Hope your day goes well :D

5.6 ~

Just took the AP Chem exam... I failed that so bad T^T It actually wasn't too bad, I understood most of it and remember learning about it, I just didn't do any of it right... That's okay though, I'm more confident for my pre-calc and psych exams anyway. I'm having a pizza party in my chem class tomorrow to celebrate, so that'll be fun. Doing correctives in my pre-calc class. I get to write another picture book for my creative writing class! I'm excited for that. I finished the rough draft. Maybe I'll figure out how to add it here later. My partner also got me chocolate yesterday and I ate most of it haha. I have a little left for today. Anyways, hope your day has been well! If you're taking AP exams, good luck! You got this.

5.4 ~

Went out to the mall with my friends yesterday to celebrate one of their birthdays :D It was really fun, I haven't been able to see one of them in awhile so that was nice. I got popcorn and a blind box, I got a cute little flower rabbit in it. The popcorn was decently priced too (for a mall). We all got boba, but it upset my stomach T^T, it was worth it tho! I appreciate my partner's mom driving us so I didn't have to haha, that would've been chaotic and a lot of gas money. I've been getting along with one of my coworkers a lot better since one of the negative nancies left (a different coworker). Which is nice, bc they're actually pretty fun to joke around with, and they're understanding so it's nice. They also mean what they say, so, that's a plus. I hope your weekend has gone well :D

5.2 ~

I've been consistently hungry RIGHT when I wake up, which is super weird, I usually don't start getting hungry until an hourish after I wake up, idk what's going on. Anyways, it's one of my best friend's birthdays today and we're going to go to the mall together this weekend. I have to work this weekend, but it's chill. This pre-calc exam is going to kill me tho, it's across four days T^T It's already mostly done, but still, it's SO MUCH. And then the psych exam is only across two, it's chill, I got extra credit. I've given up on the AP Chem exam, I'll get a three if I'm LUCKY. I understand absolutely nothing. It's so disappointing, but whatever! It's almost over. I'm almost done. Two more weeks and then I'm basically free (end of ap exams).

4.30 ~

I was hungry again when I woke up haha. I was going to fast today and then decided not to bc my friend got us donuts and it's stir fry for lunch today. My partner abandoned me AGAIN (he's sick), he's been doing that a lot lately, I'm worried :( I wish there was something I could do for him but there's not really much I can do since a lot of it is because of school. I'm so sick and tired of feeling numb tho, my meds are numbing me out and it's so annoying. I'm not anxious anymore, but I'm not anything anymore and it's... idk. I talked about it with my therapist yesterday and she said it's good for getting coping mechanisms for anxiety while I don't have a lot of it and then gradually get off the meds. Which makes sense, but idk. THE SENIORS ARE GRADUATING SOON. I'm actually going to lose it, most of my friends are seniors T^T. But then AP exams will be done! Speaking of that... I have so many exams to do these next few weeks T^T oh well. I wish your day goes great!

4.29 ~

I was so hungry today T^T I woke up and my stomach rumbled, idk why. I surprisingly didn't have a whole bunch of calories even tho I thought I did. Prom was this past weekend, it was pretty fun :) I went with my partner and a few friends. It was at a museum :D The food was FIRE, like, I was surprised. THEY HAD CHEESECAKE BITES. Omg, I love cheesecake bites. I had just had some bomb cheesecake at dinner too... my partner and I went to an italian restaurant and their breadsticks were amazing, same with their pizza. And not to expensive either. It was my first time trying margarita pizza, pretty good. My boss gave me more shifts, which is a love/hate thing with all these exams. It's one of my friends bday's on Friday and then my partner's next week... AND THEY HAVENT TOLD ME WHAT THEY WANT T^T Actually going to loose it, I'm not a good gift giver, I need some help in that aspect guys T^T Anyways, hope your day has been well :)

4.21 ~

I didn't really feel hungry today, I didn't even really need to chew any gum, nice, but weird. A jerk came into work, whatever. The nice turkey-bacon lady came in tho :D. I'm tired but super energized, it's weird. I have a test tomorrow. And a lot of exams coming up. A lot to study for T^T. It's alright tho, home stretch, and then all done! It'll be worth it. I want more shifts, but ik I shouldn't pick anymore up. I planned a lot for the next week and ik I'll regret it, oh well!

4.17 ~

Took the SAT yesterday and just finished with the MSTEP, my last standardized test ever! Now I just have the AP Exams to look forward to...
I actually had one of those "clicking" moments in therapy yesterday, so that was cool. Usually I just yap to her lol. Idk, not a lot has been going on haha, that's about it.

4.14 ~

Just got back from Spring Break, I was at my aunt's house for it. I tried to keep up with working out and I did most days. I didn't get good rest unfortunately, but when I got back from my house, I was oddly productive. I had work though :/ I did, however, make cookies! Just plain chocolate chip again haha. I went out on a date yesterday with my partner. Just a froyo and movie date, it was nice though because I didn't get to see him all break. I went to a trippy art exhibit and played mini golf with my aunt and uncle. We all sucked at mini golf lol. I didn't really do much honeslty T^T I like my breaks to be restful. That's really it. School is boring and I'm exhausted, so nothing changed.

4.2 ~

It's been a busy week T^T I had two concerts these past few days and it was so hectic and exhausting. I'm hanging out with my partner today though, we're going out for dinner and getting ice cream hopefully, and then I have work tomorrow. And then no school Friday! So it's gonna be pretty chill. I'm going down to Texas for spring break and I didn't tell any of my friends apparently T^T (not on purpose, ig I just forgot haha). I'm a little salty about a few things today, but oh well, I'm not gonna talk to the person about it, so T^T omg, it was so cute last night, my cat came to my room with me and hung out with me until I went up to my bed, and then he left, it was so precious, I love him so much omggg. He cuddled with me a few nights ago too. I brought lots of snacks to school today and already ate most of them... T^T Anyways, have a good day! Hope yall had a good April Fools day haha

3.27 ~

Had WorkKeys testing today T^T it's the STUPIDIST state test EVER. So easy, and we get the results in OCTOBER, every other result (SAT/PSAT/MSTEP/AP) comes out in July! It's honestly just tiring because it's 3 hours of sitting and thinking, even if it's easy. Otherwise my day was solid, I understood AP Chem today, finally. I have two quizzes tomorrow tho... I'm so tired. One of my friends sprained his wrist at practice yesterday, and it was his dominant hand T^T I felt so bad cause I kept bumping it. I had DND today after a few weeks because of scheduling issues and I'm sad I couldn't be completely involved in it. One of my friends came just to draw some of the scenes lol, it was pretty chill. I made stir fry when I came home, chatted with my mom. Today was, like 6.5/10 just bc I was exhausted lol.